for all that's worth

2009-06-12T14:35:00.004+08:00

Now it's gonna get harder
and it's gonna burn brighter
and it's gonna feel tougher each and every day
so let me say, that i love you
you're all I've ever wanted
all I've ever dreamed of to come
and yes you did come
i want you so bad (so bad)
can you feel it too? (it too)
you know I'm so, I'm so in love with you
i want you, so much
i need you, so much
i need your, i need your, your touch

i miss you i miss you i miss you/
YOU YOU YOU

2009-06-10T23:12:00.001+08:00

nineth

FUCK NI LA.

2009-06-07T22:21:00.002+08:00

juneeee seventh

cycling. beach. water fountain. steamboat. arcade. shopping. crafts.

spent most of my time alone, with netties, Brenda, custardbutt and twistedturn, messaging new and old friends, reflecting.

i'm not a good person i know. or so i've realised. people think i'm nice but i don't think so anymore. i miss having fun with you know who (cannot say) and being stupid, childish and annoying like how i always am. i hate the holidays because i don't get to see my friends like Serene, janice, shuyi, ren jean, gwen and qiu lin. at least i have more time for myself and to catch up with old and distant friends. never forgotten, of course. i miss them so much and i don't think the feeling will ever go away. i have a feeling, that we'll be friends for life because girls are girls. and girlfriends don't desert you when you need someone the most. i love all of you so much, and yet it's different.

woke up early to run for 10 mins because limleeying and tanzhuting woke up latezzzzz. and we stuffed ourselves just because twistedturn says cannot waste food. i went shopping and ended up with blisters and disappointment. i bought the wrong thread!!!!! never mind i am going to change it tomorrowzz. and and taekwondo was ssssooooooo looonnngggg and tiring because zoots made me run with her aka extra rounds for me. at least i got my grading form which means i can pon class from nowonwards.

AND I AM GOING TO PRACTISE MY DDR SKILLS BECAUSE I FUCKING SUCK AT IT.
my dad just bought a new VIP card with lotss of $$$$ so i can go there everyday to practise. and nobody can call me a loser anymore.

i uploaded new photos onto facebook so you can see if you are interested. add me on facebook i need new and more friends. i can be a better person. i can i can i can.
__|__

okay, thank you.

2009-05-17T21:49:00.002+08:00

17th may

i ate like so much glitter and lost half my vision. but it was fun nevertheless and so damn ku sia.

2009-05-10T19:08:00.004+08:00

mother's day

i miss us.
all of you and so many more.

2009-04-12T11:46:00.001+08:00

easter.

Ah, it's not the same. They don't need me. I like the way I feel. I like thinking about the red dress and the television and you and your family. Now when I get the sun, I smile.

(i hope you do too)

2009-03-09T22:19:00.005+08:00

09 march 09

lucky i'm love with my best friend.
:)

yay the concert was amazing but i thought JulyAugustSeptemberOctoberNovember Mraz did a better show during singfest. he had so much more energy then! nevertheless it was still worth it.

we had the night adventure around Singapore last friday. could have skipped it but i didn't because it sounded so fun. and indeed it was! we walked from school to eunos which seems quite far but it is actually not! we sang songs and took many photos along the way. i guess that was our last fun night activity in the boarding school. but maybe not because it is Baldie's birthday tomorrow and there's the farewell party which i don't think i can make it back in time for. schade.

i can't wait for boarding term to be over even though i know i'll miss it quite a bit. but i'm not used to having curfews and fixed meal times. and i love the feeling of being at home.

exactly my point, i'm being chased upstairs now.

/edit
friday,
it's our last night tonight!!

2009-02-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

28th feb

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANDSOME!
you're the best person to bitch to. haha i remember few months back we met at the platform of City Hall mrt and sat there and talk for 2 hours plus, which cost me $2!!! and 2 years ago around this time we did so much for other, our get-married-to-each-other-if-we-cannot-find-anyone-else-by-25 plan. but i'm glad we remained this way and nothing else.

i don't know why but i just feel happier today.

2009-02-23T23:25:00.001+08:00

twentythird.

i wish i had bigger boobs and sexier legs.

2009-02-14T13:44:00.002+08:00

vday!

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA VALENTINO AND IVAN!!

so much has happened i don't know how i can possibly remember everything. there was orientation 2 which was so so so awesome with my fabulous OG who made that nice thing for me IN PINK AND GLITTERED! hahaha they are so funny, especially during external hunt. wish i could have been there for their outings and hang outs more often. but never mind la they still remember me anyway.

&& we got third for Daisy Tan last sunday! i made sandwiches and bought 100 plus for everyone. tell me i am nice. benben came down too which made it even better.

we went swimming today. or rather wanted to la. and then sushi! (you know i'd walk a thousand miles if i could just see you tonight)

i've kinda gotten used to hostel life. packing, unpacking, packing unpacking, lost laundry, shitass attitude, paranoid people, weird songs that serene plays... i know you all pity me :'( on the bright side, there's only 4 more weeks to go!

see you all soon, maybe in a week's time. or not.

2009-02-04T21:29:00.002+08:00

fourth feb.

i hate it when people are so irresponsible and so selfish. they push the blame on others when it is obviously their fault. and they claim that they are right, all the time.
i hate it when people are so inconsiderate and so full of themselves. they think they're the best and that nobody is as good as them. they can easily get their and hurt others because they are so good with words that many people are terrified of them.
i hate it when people are so shallow and stupid. like seriously get a life. you are not that awesome, although you woish you were.

i think these idiots deserve to burn in hell, not me.

2009-01-27T22:22:00.002+08:00

27th jan 09

If I had to choose a way to die
It'd be with you
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your face
In a goosebump infested embrace
With my overanxious hands cupping your cherub face

How does it feel?

2009-01-25T13:51:00.003+08:00

cny eve

i'm home and i am super happy.

happy chinese new year everyone.

happy (belated) birthday to ren jean cara gayle ruby and jingmin.

2009-01-17T23:26:00.003+08:00

seventeenth january 2009

yay i survived orientation one and a week in the boarding school with WEIRD SERENE. only eight more to go. and one more orientation. and SCHOOL.

2009-01-10T12:34:00.002+08:00

10th jan09

"the camera always lies. it's just how you want to let it lie."

shit it's my last night at home moving in to the hostel tomorrow wtfzzzz

2009-01-02T00:27:00.003+08:00

2nd jan 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR FOLKS!

it's been a pretty busy last week of 2008. but i'm smart because i took my vitamins and ate my greens and fruits and drank my fruit juice! ly: i finished the apple one so i might call you over to deliver more soon!

on the 26th we had a sleepover at my house because of christel lee. shuyi sucks because she made us wait for like 2h plus i think. and baldie too; she didn't want to watch saw. we had so much fun disturbing shuyi and baldie because they are not in our circle of friendship.
the first day of OGL camp began on the 27th but it wasn't a stay over. i think it would have been much much better if we had stayed over instead. it wasn't too bad though, despite getting a little too boring at some points.
28th i think i didn't do anything. i kinda slept the whole day until evening when i met jon to talk talk talk till so late.
uh OGL camp continued on the 29th and 30th. we were so silly, we kept doing the hum chee peng cheer from YLTC because it is soooooooooo kkooool! sent my buddy off too on monday night after having dinner just the four of us together!
31st we went out as seen above. it was a lovely night/day although we didn't have our dim sum as planned. we caught the fireworks on TV mobile at 12midnight and there was this crazy bunch of teenagers on the bus they made new year's so so much livelier.
my 1st was boring because i didn't make plans. we took our family portrait some time in the afternoon and went to Uncle Jeffrey's house after that. i actually intended to pack my cupboard and table but there wasn't time and since there was walk in practice in the morning today i went to bed early.

oh, WS and i caught seven pounds today after the rehearsal. we were supposed to watch that benjamin button show with Daniel and Kat but it isn't out yet so it ended up being just the two of us. i fell asleep at the start of the movie. it was so slow and boring. but the ending was sweet, a little sad though. would you die to save seven strangers??

2008 was a good year, i would say. did lots of crazy stuff and i made a whole bunch of new friends. but it passed too quickly. and there were things i wish i could have change. i guess i can't anymore. as what jonathan says, we should all move on and things happen because they do. there's no point in thinking about it when you can't do anything about it.

it's a new year, a new start. although i'm not the kind who makes resolutions, i do have goals and targets for myself this 2009. i am going to be a better person, to myself and to everyone else. i am going to do the things i like and not what is right because my dad says that people who succeed in life are those who do the things they like and are happy about it. and i want to be one of them. i am not as useless as some people think i am and i know that. everything's gonna change now. okay maybe not everything. but some things.

i just need the people so dear to me to support me and i am sure it will turn out fine.

2008-12-25T14:34:00.004+08:00

(merry) christmas.

we had a party at lee ying's place on the 23rd. which was fun. although a little lack of christmas atmosphere. but Ci Hui loves me!

on the eve, it was so bloody crowded in town i didn't expect that to be the case. i thought everyone would be home celebrating with their families. and i didn't manage to get anything in the end. so we went to simpang and then to tampines interchange mcdonalds where ly had her hot chocolate which looked like the christmas version of it because it was so white!

and today we didn't do much. just late lunch and a little walk because i woke up late. and then i played the computer like my brother and sisters. they are still playing but i am tired and have better things to do so i am going to sleep now.

merry christmas everyone!

2008-12-19T21:53:00.006+08:00

nineteenth december

guess who's back?

no i don't mean just me, but someone so tiny she's smaller than tiny tv!

yay, BUDDDAAAAYYYYYY. she came back last tuesday but i never really quite found the time to blog about her. anyway i think by now almost everyone would have known already. it was hilarious seeing everybody's reactions when Christellee popped out of nowhere. and of course i was the mastermind. as usual.

then a short trip to Genting and netball chalet, which i left halfway becausei am no longer as young and healthy as before. like excuse me, there wasn't any buffer time between either of the activities it's not my fault i fell sick again. it was quite bad this time, considering the fact that i couldn't get out of bed for a few days. but it was nice, i had flowers and visits from only one, sadly, or thankfully. stupid buddy is becoming more and more like useless baldie who doesn't have a mind of her own.

it was so sad, almost everyone ended up sick. the three days was supposed to be happy and fof. and training camp cancelled.

at least there's christmas to look forward to now.

2008-12-05T12:17:00.007+08:00

4th dec 2008

YLTC.
training camp.
prom.
brother's birthday.
grad night.

we had our first informal walk in practice today. i don't know, i thought i liked last year's OGLs and concept better.

they were giving away free drinks at starbucks today but because my greedy brother had stomachache after having sushi we had to go home straight.

but now i wonder if there'll always be someone to peel my prawns for me, to sing me to sleep, to wipe that extra bit of sunblock off my face, to tell me that i still am gorgeous even though my hair is obviously falling apart, to give me all the candies in the world, to wash my dirty feet after taekwondo, to check that all my magic markers are still in working condition, to play my silly games with me and let me win all the time, to be my everyday santa, to bring me coke/vanilla coke/coke light, to have starbucks/popeyes with me, to just walk around town aimlessly, to laugh at Baldie, Serene and Shuyi calling them stupid, weird and Big Butt Bimbo Loser respectively, to praise me for my baking skills even though i only (mostly) use ready mixes or to get pretty wrapping paper and ribbons for me.

life is hard, i know.
but i don't think it is that hard, you know?

2008-11-15T21:47:00.001+08:00

15th november 2008

"What's the big deal about the red dress?"
"the one your father liked so much? I remember how he looked at me in that red dress. I'm gonna wear it. You don't know? I got a call. I'm gonna be on televsion."
"come on, who's pulling your leg? what's the big deal about being on television?"
"Big deal? Did you see who had the best seat? i'm somebody now. Everybody likes me. Soon, millions of people will see me and they'll love how i look. i'll tell them about you, about us, how good we were, remember? It's a reason to get up in the morning. It's a reason to lose weight, to fit in that red dress. It's a reason to smile. It's amazing to smile. It makes tomorrow alright."

2008-11-06T20:45:00.002+08:00

november6th

i think it's weird to fall sick for four days out of the blue. maybe it was the sushi maybe it was the weather but whatever the case i am fit and strong now, or so i think.

i miss happy and cheerful days more than Oreo O's, Alphabet Cereal, Oompa Loompas and Bobdog Sweet.

:(

2008-10-27T21:39:00.003+08:00

happy deepavali!

"i think everyone lie to me all the time."

i've been reading other people's secrets/confessions. am intrigued, amused, disgusted, comforted, appauled... but i guess it's like just gonna be like that anyway.

open day. o level german. friendly game. class party. the coffin. GPA.

i think i deserve some recognition but i doubt i would get it anyway. i seek comfort and assurance in yz now. i want to be myself again. to be free and do shitass nonsense that totally make people roll their eyes. but i don't care anymore. knitting; starbucks; greek; books; greeting cards; movies. i don't know.

2008-10-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

saturday, 11th oktober.

this is love, Pauline.

riceball riceball riceball.

2008-10-08T19:59:00.004+08:00

8th October 2008

kay so favourite person and i went for the Reebok Pink Ribbon Walk last saturday. before that i finished assessment week, did plenty of other stuff too but i really really cannot remember what. netball is starting too on friday... but anyway i just had my german oral, which went well. or least i think it did. it'd better, because i was mugging so hard in the library when everybody else was either playing bridge or playing tennis or doing whatever.

we're in the midst of getting back our papers. who cares, i'll definitely qualify for my subject combination for next year. now it's just whether H2 or H1 germanzzzz and 4/5 subjects.

&& today is a special day. but i guess it didn't turn out too good. doesn't matter cause i'm talking to christellee now but she's taking so long in the toilet! maybe she fell into the toilet bowl just weird serene the other day when we went to have sushi.

anyway since exams are over already and the holidays are less than a month away, i've come up with a list of things to do. no more childish silly nonsense like throwing peanuts at elephants or trying to get Shuyi's big butt stuck in the dustbin. instead, i've decided to do more enriching and mature things like knitting and origami. maybe i'll try finding a school to do coaching for. i know, like so cool right.

the other day during math, we had this crazy idea of setting up our own clothing line. well not exactly crazy, but it's a little too ambitious considering the fact that we only have limited experience in sewing and all of us don't know how to work the sewing machine. but i sew buttons really well! if that's even of any use. by the way, who knows where to get cheap and good cloth from?

oh oh i remember. i had my yellow-green grading and watched house bunny twice and eagle eye once and...

uhhh i'm gonna end here because i want to.

2008-09-18T23:48:00.006+08:00

18th september 2008

been there 3 days in a row straight at midnight. hope you had a fabulous 16, favourite person. it'll be kohmingswee(funniest person in the world)'s soon.

nicholas wrote a song for her. i wish someone did the same too.

i've been in a i-feel-like-baking-to-relieve-stress-or-rather-i-just-want-to-escape-studying kind of mood lately, so i did oreo cheesecake twice, honey joys and blueberry muffins! they all turned out really good too in fact.

anyway, someone said i ask stupid questions. but you are a silly sick pickle, so what do you know?

need to study study study. okay, maybe not. given the current list of my future occupations, i don't think there is a significant effect of my grades on my future. because after all somebody else is going to be the one who supports me financially and i'm quite alright with the idea of not getting a proper job. of course, i intend to settle down by 25, have kids(adopt most probably) by 28, and get married in Disneyland. i'm going to do whatever i like because i trust that the future plastic surgeon will be able to give me a pretty face no matter what my age is.

besides, i'm going to set up a fashion line with Lynna and Hieu, which i am quite confident will turn out successful. imagine us earning big bucks before A levels and getting interviewed by the press. and i, shall model my own clothes.

but even if that doesn't work out, i can at least still carry on dreaming about becoming a model, or some entertainment star. i wouldn't mind being an air stewardess too. bartending sounds fun, so does hair dressing. i want to be a wedding planner so that when it comes to my own, it'll be the most perfect one ever. i like the idea of being a florist but i don't like to clean up the place because i always make a mess whenever i try to make my own bouquet. i used to dream about being a policewoman because it is so cool and i get to carry a gun around. a bouncer would be nice, but the ugly bulgy muscles turn me off. mr something praised my dnt skills last time so i suppose i would cut it as a toy maker. brewing coffee at starbucks is cool because i get to meet new people. but i like fast cars and racers. i want an exciting occupation like a magician's assistant or a nomad. hahahahaha okay this is getting ridiculous. but anyway i aspire to start my own bakery/eatery in the future, and it is going to be world famous and legendary. like The Cookie Museum. speaking of which, thank you louisaaaaa.

i really don't intend to work hard next time but if for i don't know what reasons my husband is unable to provide for me, i will
1) divorce him
2) sleep with another richer man
3) extort money from his pitiful parents and family
4) make him rob a bank for me so that i can buy the whole world
5) force him to steal from a sickly old woman using the most unthinkable ways possible

kidding la. i seem to have a strange interest in accountancy though. so yeah, managing accounts is something i wouldn't mind doing, but that gets a little boring sometimes so i can only pray that my man'll turn out successful so i won't ever have to worry about anything. and i think that's highly possible.

but still, expect the unexpected (haha OBS), which is why i am study pretty hard now though i take a short break every now and then. and we both know we must do well this time because it seriously does matter a lot if you think about it. so yeah, time to hit the books again. love, marshmallows and orange litmus paper.

P.S. i passed chinese.

2008-09-07T18:14:00.021+08:00

07th September

i know i've kinda been MIA here for quite some time already, but if you are my friend you should know what's been happening.

so anyway,
pictures.
1) Be Yourself Day
2) Joyce's birthday/Teachers' Day celebrations
3) class picnic
4) birthday party
5) Ci Hui's barbecue
6) (un)sweet sixteen

death race today. did some work too, just a little.

i want to talk a bit here about my sixteenth birthday.
fifth september was definitely one of the crappiest day of my life. for years i expected it to be nice, sweet and fun but that day totally sucked. i spent most of it getting upset and not enjoying myself at all. my life was quite a mess then but i'm glad i've pretty much sorted it out already. maybe it was because the night before was Ci Hui's barbecue which Liang Kai had planned for her. but maybe not. i don't know, things got ugly and frustrating over the phone. but favourite person, yicheng, zhuting, hongkai and huayu stalked me home without me knowing and were the first to wish me happy birthday in persons. Reuben came and made things better. but i don't know if it's PMS or whatever i woke up late in the morning and things started to go downhill from there. Ming Swee, Lee Ying, Ryan, Raymond, Grace, Zhu Ting and Brenda came over to surprise me at night and that kinda made things better. though i have many lovely friends and an awesome boyfriend, i wish i could say the same about my family. evidently not. maybe sometimes all i want is a closer relationship with them but they just don't seem to get it.

thank you everyone for every little thing you did. like just simply smiling at me for saying hi is sufficient to make my day. of course, there were those who did so much more than that, namely Reuben, Lee Ying and Zhu Ting.

and i been wondering,
why the fuck do we celebrate birthdays?

answer me, anyone. comment.

love and peace.

2008-08-26T00:02:00.002+08:00

montag, 25th august

with Mr Tang Li Meng, i miss you and your stupid company.

&oral prelims today. i thought it went fine, i hope it did. composition, reading and listening shouldn't be that challenging.

they say,
what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.

do you think so?
i don't.

2008-08-20T20:30:00.003+08:00

20.08.2008

from saturday, at the airport, fu seng's farewell. more than like 50 were there. i wonder how many would be present when i leave.

school's getting lamezzzzzz. but with prelims and assessment week coming up, i cannot complain so much. i must do well this time. i must i must. and i mean it.

2008-08-15T22:39:00.004+08:00

friday, 15th august

fu seng's last minute farewell dinner with 2g last night. quite a successful one, more than half of us turned up. i'm glad we had one anyway.

this week was quite a very bad indeed. been staying up to study, complete assignments andtutorials i think i should be rewarded for being a good girl. and, Aye Captain this week. the weather wasn't quite on our side on tuesday though. but i'm quite sure that the teams all enjoyed themselves.

i never liked pickle(s), but i think i do now.

2008-08-11T19:49:00.002+08:00

2 days after National Day

okay so many things happened but i forgot what exactly. Racial Harmony Day, National Day, court painting, Singfest, the Keith Tan international IT teaching convention etc. basically did many many fun things.

and then i got more hello you gs flowers as well as a hello wen jia i love you bouquet. i still want my butterfly/flies though. but i am happy la. national day eve (080808) with my baby without the cert. soon, soon.

photo shoot with carollee and yz on national day. pictures look pretty okay so far. nicer ones coming up i hope. anyway forgot to mention about princess winnie's birthday on friday. and and wanted to catch the fireworks with stupid baldie and weird serene but baldie, as stupid as always, took us to some place where we were not able to catch the pathetic 5min display of fireworks. so we ended up watching the mummy 3.

yesterday had dinner with uncle willie from the states after taekwondo. i promoted! and and i finally got my pencil case too.

today was supposed to be hardcore german mugging day but i don't know, or rather don't want to mention, whose fault it was that we went out to do other stuff instead.

and because i am lazy, and am becoming busier too, i have not been updating much. but if you are my friend, you should probably know how my life is like.

(i love yz.)

2008-08-04T23:23:00.004+08:00

monday! fourth august

SINGFEST!

(to be continued...)

2008-07-27T20:16:00.003+08:00

sunday, 27th july 2008

i meant to have done this earlier. but because i'm lazy, you're only getting this now. i'll try to remember what happened the entire week as much as i can. here goes.

yesterday, Pesta Sukan Carnival. i thought we all were not too bad. i wouldn't say i was spectacular/awesome/outstanding/marvellous, but i thought my performance was okay. think i would have played better if my baby had stayed throughout. but it's okay, i'm glad you even came down anyway! the coach rewarded us with goodies, which made me quite happy. the goodies kinda made up for the compliments i wish i had gotten instead. never mind, after the matches, had dinner with Peggie Mel and Jieqi shit!

caught The Dark Knight with Weird Serene on friday after school. was supposed to go reverse bungee ing with Fu Seng, but the weather wasn't on our side. so we decided to postpone our outing.

uh Weird's Serene's guitar concert at the esplanade on Thursday. and basketball 4-on-4 semifinals. got fourth overall! am i not a good captain? :D

wedesnday (my future daughter's name), 4-on-4 challenge, we won every game! yaaayyyyyy but i missed german la. house session/captain's ball with 08IP04 juniors. && MY HELLO YOU GS FLOWER!

training on tuesday. hmm probably that's it.

went for german on monday, i think.

and yeah, today, sunday, taekwondo! and i finally got my singfest tickets! wooohoooo!

2008-07-19T21:59:00.002+08:00

? july

i've lost track of time.
i don't follow dates anymore.
but what i do know is that today's a saturday.

so yeah,
shit happens.

and i'm glad we got through it.

2008-07-15T23:06:00.003+08:00

15th july 2008

peggie's birthday surprise at kallang leisure park kfc on saturday.
taekwondo.
frankenstein.

it feels good to finally be back in school, lessons proper, after like almost 2 months' break. training today. feels weird without the j2s. & we have a new coach!

oh,
goodbye ugly nape. please don't scar too badly on me.

2008-07-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

thursday, tenth

2008-07-07T20:25:00.002+08:00

060708

OKAY, I AM BACK.

actually OBS wasn't that bad. i had a better group and a much better instructor as well. it wasn't as demanding as last year's. in fact i think it's more enjoyable and fruitful. we did cross island kayaking, trekking, sailing and the high element thing. it's hard to type out everything here but i certainly won't forget everything that happened the past seven days.

and, they let me leave early today morning! so i managed to make it for my grading. but it was pretty awful. i got kinda nervous and blanked out for a moment. hopefully it'll end up well.

the first thing i did after i got my taekwondo uniform was to get myself a coke and some mcdonalds breakfast. 6 days without coke is like a little worse than 6 days without my phone. had breakfast with Daddy and zhu ting and went for grading. after which, met up with someone so very special. and at night, Zhu Ting and favourite person came over for durians!

which reminds me, during our trekking expedition, we harvested some fruits including durian and jackfruit.

school is starting school is starting school is starting. omg omg i need to start on my homework now now now. but before i sign off this is a little shout out to Marilyn Lee who loves plasters. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

2008-06-29T20:32:00.003+08:00

sunday, 29th June 2008

because the J2s+Ms Lim+Weiming&Bernard were mean and it was Pauline's stupid idea.

~~red.~~ red. still red.

no, i am not sad about it. (okay maybe i am. but just a little.) more of disappointed i would say. personally i think i could have done it, but i don't know what happened. maybe it was because i haven't been reading my rules well enough or prepared myself sufficiently. but i don't think it was the coke i had or the rolling that we did, although i do admit that i didn't feel too good by the end of the third quarter. i'm not blaming anyone else but myself. because i already knew halfway that i didn't make the cut. it's alright i guess, after all i did try. i really did.
(pauline, does this answer your question?)

and i'm glad that everyone at Netball Singapore was so supportive and thoughtful, Miss Vivian included. they were all just so nice and cool. i think i made many new friends yesterday. so can i be the next postergirl?

i got myself a new (boy)friend from taekwondo today. have i mentioned how much i like meeting and getting to know new people? now i think i have.

will be gone for about a week because the school is sending us little IP kids to Pulau Ubin to get eaten up by scary monsters hiding in the forests and come back looking a zillion shades darker than black. okay, maybe i'm exaggerating, but i really really really really really really really don't want to go for OBS the second time. my first experience was bad enough. i just hope this time's would be better. much better.

on the bright side, it's only a week, not like forever. (thank god.) but there'll be things i wouldn't want to leave behind. or rather, someone. and i hope i can make it for grading next sunday. i wouldn't want to waste another 3 months learning/practising the same pattern.

2008-06-27T23:11:00.002+08:00

friday, 27th

Enrichment Week wasn't very enriching because we kinda signed up for all the loserish activities like we did last year. Jewellery Making, Ikebana, Chinese Movie Appreciation, Film Appreciation: The Whale Rider, Brewing A Storm.

today is a special day because it is EricaAngYiZhi's birthday as well as ifyoulieyoudon'tdeservetohavefriends' album release date. but of course, HMV doesn't have it yet. and when i'm back from OBS, i'll get myself one, that is, if it is out in stores already.

tomorrow will be an exciting day. friendly with Deloitte in the morning, badging in the afternoon and another game in the evening. please please please i like white better than i like red.

2008-06-24T22:47:00.001+08:00

tuesday

netball netball netball.

2008-06-22T21:48:00.002+08:00

sunday, 22nd

yesterday was a bad day. and so would tomorrow be another one.

maybe netball is not the game for me anymore. i don't like it when i get shit from netball. it's depressing, emotionally draining. like yesterday. i hate it when i go back looking like some powerpuffgirl, and skin cancer is a definite no no.

school reopens tomorrow and i am so not looking forward to it. although i would love to get my toothbrush back as well as meet my month-lost friends, doing what i like whenever i like is still the best option.

i hate school. hate hate hate school. (or maybe not.)

2008-06-21T00:19:00.004+08:00

20th june 2008

#10 Mosquitoes are attracted to people who just ate bananas.
#16 The world's termites outweigh the world's humans 10 to 1.
#18 A jellyfish is 95% water.
#19 Children grow faster in the spring.
#27 A ball of glass will bounce higher then a ball of rubber.
#29 On average a human will spend up to 2 weeks kissing in his/her lifetime.
#31 The average human will eat an average of eight spiders while sleeping.
#32 There are one million ants to every human in the world.
#34 If you keep a goldfish in a dark room it will eventually turn white.
#46 Elephants are the only mammal that cannot jump.
#56 A quarter of the bones in your body are in your feet.
#58 A sneeze travels out of your nose at 100 mph.
#59 Brain waves can be used to power an electric train.
#60 The tongue is the fastest healing part of the body.
#61 Pigs get sunburned.
#62 The lifespan of a taste bud is 10 days.
#64 Strawberries contain more vitamin C then oranges.
#68 The longest one syllable word is "screeched."
#69 No word in the English language rhymes with month.
#70 A "jiffy" is actually 1/100 of a second.
#73 The average person spends two weeks of its life waiting for a traffic light to change.
#75 The average person makes 1,140 phone calls per year.
#76 The average person spends two years on the phone in his/her lifetime.
#80 About 18 percent of animal owners share their bed with their pet.
#83 Googol is a number (1 followed by 100 zeros).
#84 Oysters can change genders back and forth.
#85 The Mona Lisa has no eyebrows.
#91 There are more telephones than people in Washington, D.C.
#99 You burn 20 calories an hour chewing gum.
#102 A one-minute kiss burns 26 calories.
#103 Frowning burns more calories then smiling.
#107 You burn more calories sleeping then watching TV.
#108 Licking a stamp burns 10 calories.
#109 Smelling apples and/or bananas can help you lose weight.
#126 A pigeon's feathers are heavier than its bones.
#131 Penguins have an organ above their eyes that converts seawater to fresh water.
#132 A crocodile cannot move its tongue.
#137 The city of Los Angeles has three times more automobiles than people.
#153 The speed limit in NYC was eight mph in 1895.
#166 Before mercury, brandy was used to fill thermometers.
#167 You have to play ping-pong for 12 hours to lose one pound.
#171 The most sensitive parts of the body are the mouth and the fingertips.
#175 In 1634, tulip bulbs were a form of currency in Holland.
#214 Giraffes can lick their own eyes.
#251 There are more French restaurants in New York City than in Paris.
#270 Colors like red, yellow and orange make you hungry.
#302 Ketchup was once sold as a medicine.
#315 No two lip impressions are the same.
#326 On average, you'll spend a year of your life looking for misplaced objects.
#336 The last letter to be added to our alphabet was J.
#358 Butterflies were formerly known by the name Flutterby.
#366 The center of some golf balls contain honey.
#419 A jiffy is an actual time measurement equaling 1/100th of a second.
#422 Apples, peaches and raspberries are all members of the rose family.
#423 U.S. paper currency isn't made of paper - it's actually a blend of cotton and linen.
#429 There are 336 dimples on a regulation American golf ball.
#444 The Statue of Liberty wears a size 879 sandal.
#449 Sound travels quicker in water than in air.
#452 There are approximately 9,000 taste buds on your tongue.
#454 Polar bear fur is transparent, not white.
#458 Fresh cranberries can be bounced like a rubber ball.
#463 The dot over the letter "I" is called a tittle.
#469 454 U.S. dollar bills weigh exactly one pound.
#487 Place an apple in the bag with your potatoes to keep them from budding.
#488 Place a slice of bread in the storage container to keep cookies soft when storing.
#660 The strike note of The Liberty Bell is E flat.
#664 It is against the law to put pretzels in bags in Philadelphia.
#673 The first Ferris wheel was built in Atlantic City in 1869.

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2008-06-19T20:41:00.002+08:00

18th june

if i woke up next to you, if i woke up next to you.

so maybe i might be going for badging this year after all.

Hazel: you just told everyone how slow you swim! haha! and sure i did go down to support you.

2008-06-14T22:01:00.004+08:00

june 14th

i am still bitter about what happened during Netballuxion earlier on today. it was clearly the umpire's fault but she doesn't just want to admit it. we could have won Times if it wasn't for her mistake. we could have made it to the finals. we could have gotten the $900 worth of cash and prizes. it is so not fair. not fair. not fair.

i'm not being a sore loser, because i think that Times is a good team and that they showed good sportsmanship. they weren't rough or anything, they were all clean players. i don't like people who play dirty and can get away with that. thankfully the teams that we met today were still not as bad as that "relac arh" girl from i forgot what school it was. maybe sometimes i should control my emotions a little because i could have been sent off court with the middle finger of mine.

but still, come to think of it, we waited for almost six hours to play a total of 21 minutes of street netball and go home empty handed. a little pointless, isn't it? okay fine, we had a free goodie bag each and a smelly shirt. and Joyce, the half naked guys in my magazine are definitely hottier sexier and more muscular than yours. jealous?

maybe it was the Kenny Roger's we had. maybe it was the pushpop i enjoyed. maybe it was the ice cream i bought. maybe it was the umpire. just maybe.

on a lighter note, after Netballuxion, we walked around Marina Square and i got to see a free show. we all did, actually. i think Joyyyce is becoming sexier. (Y)(Y)

2008-06-10T00:07:00.004+08:00

monday, say yay

so stuff happened and i couldn't find time to update. Graci's birthday, training, supposed sleepover, cousin's one month dinner, one month, Baby.

i baked today. muffins and cookies. i wanted to try baking bread but i ran out of time and mix. i like my brother, even though i always poke fun of how fat and clumsy he is.

on Graci's birthday, we kinda surprised her and i slept over. i knew putting cake in Zhuting's pants was a bad idea but i did it anyway, and got my fair share of retribution eventually. we all ended up pretty caked and have quite a hard time getting the smell off us. next morning had training, was actually quite tempted to skip it but i still went. and then did stuff with dearest people came over. mingryamond lou ly huayu fuseng that's it i think. i can't remember anything much other than this so i think i'll stop here and prepare for netball tomorrow.

2008-06-04T20:38:00.004+08:00

june fourth

on monday, afterlunch at Siglap with Hetfield.

sunday was the adidas carnival. disappointing, but yeah we'll survive.
monday with Paul and Reuben.
tuesday trained chinese Serene Siau and there was this confusion about when we were meeting

i woke up late today and was late for german. watched Narnia after that. had the worst dinner in a long time. i know, i am selfish, she is not. she is beautiful, i am not. she is important to you, i am nowhere near where she stands. i didn't use to hate you, but you made me.

and they say a mother's love is unconditional. i wonder why.

2008-05-31T01:18:00.004+08:00

May 30th, 31st

ARISTAL 2008.

training in the morning, got horribly sunburnt. but i thought Aristal was good, better than i expected it to be at least. train ride back was yet another entertaining one. Ben has this totally cool Franck Muller which jumps when it's a new hour. i am so gonna have one soon too.

photog camp on wednesday and thursday. can't say anything much about it since i wasn't there for most parts of the camp.

watched Armgeddon for the i-don't-know-how-many time. and Uncle Richard's house warming. we were almost forced into adopting Aunt Sylva's rabbits. like she didn't know i would so totally murder them if i took them home. i don't really have a thing for animals and i know that too. the best is to take them as far away from me as possible. let's just say i make better relationships with humans.

2008-05-27T23:28:00.002+08:00

tuesday, may 27th

~I'm blue ba da ba dee da ba dai ba da ba dee da ba dai ba da ba dee ba ba dai

AHHHHH MY FAVORITE SONGGGGGGGGGGG.

AI AI AI I'M YOUR LITTLE BUTTERLY
GREEN BLACK AND BLUE MAKE THE COLOURS OF THE SKY,

HAHAHA I THINK ASHWYN IS BAD INFLUENCE. he reminds me of the good old days, when we were in our Dad's cars turning up the volume of the songs we liked and singing along to them and putting them on repeat and get scolded in the end. fun fun fun. looking back, it was stupid but i really enjoyed car rides then!

give me a moment and i'll go back to listening to normal sounding music. soon. soon soon.

so anywayzzz, training today morning was good good good. a pity Peggie wasn't there though. had like chinese remedial 5 hours after training ended so hung around in school doing whatever and accompanied laoshi for dinner after that. i think i should start reading my chinese books.

Emily's party yesterday. Indiana Jones too.

oh yes, went over to Graci's after kicking class on sunday. the initial plan was to swim but well, we ended up playing mahjong instead because... :D

this holiday's been pretty good so far and i hope it'll stay that way.

2008-05-24T21:11:00.003+08:00

saturday, twentyfourth.

SERENE AND ASHWYN SITTING ON A TREE,
K I S S I N G.
first comes marriage, then come babies,
but i don't know what happened to Phi!
:D

SCHOOL OUT'S, BABY.

so yeah, holidays. am not really looking forward to it actually. to be honest, i was finally beginning to enjoy school! well, i guess i should probably use this one month break to do whatever i want and of course to do (supervised)self study whenever i have to.

assessment week went fine. biology and electrochemistry were pretty easy. i just hope that results for chinese, math and everything else won't turn out so bad. i mean, i did study this time. well, kinda.

and after papers yesterday, played basketball cause i haven't in long time. i'm actually quite glad that training's resuming next week. then, towned with Arshweewee and Reuben. CS is so not the game for me anymore.

breakfast with favourite person today. the rest of the day was good too.

maybe,

2008-05-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

AssWeek Day TWO

i think i'm the only one who likes assessment weeks. i mean, what's there not to like? not only do we not have lessons, we get to go off early. isn't that like really (Y)(Y)? so anyway, caught Made of Honor with my favourite boy after papers today.

got pwned by little junior black belt boys during taekwondo.
viwawa with Jon and Paul_ almost every night. O.O

i like how i lead my life.

2008-05-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

friday!

I LIKE COKE. A LOT.
and cranberries too.

my days have been good, despite the fact that it's assessment week. caught What Happens In Vegas with Weird Serene just, and had an excursion to Fort Canning! studied my ass off yesterday(okay, maybe not), and Tracy's birthday surprise in the evening. I SO DID NOT GET YOU ALL LOST. it was Baldie who made the wrong turn and i got you there eventually, didn't i?

i think Viwawa is absolutely entertaining during times like these. but what's frustrating is that i couldn't log in with my old account so i had to create a new one and now i'm like a noob stuck at Level 1 for taiti and 3 for bridge.

and it's all Baldie's fault. Stupid Baldie. Shuyi sucks.

2008-05-14T00:46:00.002+08:00

tuesday, 13th

because,
i can see us holding hands,
walking on the beach our toes in the sand
i can see us in the countryside
sitting in the grass laying side by side,

ahhh need to study study study. need some coke. need encouraging stickers.
(and i need my Baby.)

2008-05-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

10thMay

And still it's clear,
The way you locked the classroom door,
And whispered in my ear...
"you're what I go to school for,
you are
the one I go to school for,"

yesterday. was. amazingly. wild.
had umpiring today though.

i think, it's time to start studying for assessment week. i really really really don't want to do badly like i did. but at the rate my revision is going, i can't expect too much. if only i am not as easily distracted, if only i had longer attention span.

well, at least i'm still fun.

2008-05-08T23:39:00.002+08:00

thursdayyy

so we came in second. could have done better but oh well, i'm pretty satisfied anyway.

street netball with seniorssss+Rachel in the morning was good. the day's lessons were slack and i think free period was well spent. chinese chinese chinese. studyyeedd with some of the Nettiesss after school. I WON PEGGIE AT D.E.A.D IN THE MORNING.

we could leave this town and run forever.

2008-05-05T21:21:00.002+08:00

fifth of may

cycling.
college day.
Gayle's concert.

today was a good day.

2008-05-03T23:04:00.001+08:00

College Day

cycling! with Peggie Joyyyyyyce Pauline and Cheng Siang was good. but, they were all late and made me rush and ended up being the first to reach and waited for them! Peggie owes us all 100 kicks! ""P

the food fair didn't go too bad. had fun selling our so called apple pie and fruits. i think we even made a profit! and then, walked back halfway. i think i should try walking home from school someday, though that would probably take like 5 hours odd.

it wasn't initially part of the plan to drink, drive and crash, but...

oh, sushi and Ironman with Baldie and Weird Serene yesterday!

(i can't post photos!)

2008-05-01T23:53:00.003+08:00

Labour Day

(it's labour day so let's all give birth. where's Joyce???)

so it's over. but i thought everyone was really awesome. to me, you seniors were the best, clean and showed great sportsmanship.

LOVED LOVED LOVED TRAININGS. to be honest, i don't want them to stop. next year, next year, next year. i can't wait. and the j2s, thank you.

yeah,
May Day.
sunbathed.
shopped.
slept.
ran.
walked.
talked.

i liked today. except for the part when i came home and only realised i have like so many things to do for tomorrow, that is. why can't we have everyday off and spend time the way we really want to?
life sucks but i'm glad have you.

2008-04-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

29! April! 2008!

i'm not made of steeeeeeeeel,
but your secret's safe with me.

urgh i intended to reach home by 9.15 but i only managed to do so at 9.17. i was already almost close to running home just to make it back by 9.15. but too bad, i missed by two minutes. so anyway i walked back from bedok, again. i am so proud of myself. i didn't stop at all except at the traffic junctions because i don't jaywalk and a short stop at 7eleven to get a drink and supper.

today, had math test, yellow ribbon talk, heats. i am quite glad that we didn't screw up the heats. or rather i didn't screw it up. i don't want a repeat of last year's cause that would be nothing but embarrassing.

ahhhh someone ate the man tou that my maid kept for me! must be that stupid peggieeeee. ""P

2008-04-27T22:59:00.003+08:00

sundayyy

sell your life, sell your soul,
telling everyone you know,

so we didn't double. kinda expected it though. i don't know, i don't know, i don't know.

Stereophonics will be closing for The Great Spy Experiment tomorrow!

i can't think right now.

2008-04-26T23:00:00.002+08:00

april 26th

saturday is finally here, and will be gone in like 57 minutes. ah, time passes so quickly like that.

had physics make up lesson in the morning, and spent the whole day after that at Tracy's house working on geography. after dinner, Lynna and I smelt like barbecued food and totally stank up the bus!

took an hour walk home instead of the 10 mins train ride because i didn't run in the morning like i intended to. or do any form of exercise whatsoever.

i've been really tired the past few days, falling asleep on my table while doing work. i don't know why either. haven't been training much, so netball shouldn't be the reason. but i remember staying up quite late to attempt to edit the MI video but i didn't manage to finish it anyway. ah school's beginning to suck again, but i still like my friends anyhow.

yesterday went quite bad. school was uhm, school. i wasn't even intending to go the night before but realised i had to sumit MI stuff so yeah i went in the end. to be honest, i kinda really wanted to take the math test yesterday. i've already revised for it on thursday in school with Joyce and company. and now, since i'm only taking it next tuesday, i doubt i'll even re-revise for it again when the time comes. furthermore, i was quite annoyed and disappointed because we couldn't get tickets for The Great Spy Experiment! i really was looking forward to it. but even Mr Fandy couldn't help me out this once. Stereophonics, anyone?

umpired my first A Division match yesterday. scccaaarrrryyyy but it didn't go too bad cause i partnered with Coach Jingqing, who happens to be one of Singapore's best umpires.

i need i need i need more sleep, time, and energy. i am perpetually tired these days and i've got strange bruises all over my body. don't tell Baldie, but i think i'm slowly becoming bald like her. i have a feeling my left toe's infected too, so i'll probably go to the doctor's asap and hopefully he won't diagnose me with some chronic illness which doesn't allow me to live till i get married have kids and enjoy life like i never have before.

I WANT TO HAVE SUSHI. WHO'S UP FOR IT TOO?

2008-04-23T21:29:00.003+08:00

wednesday, 23rd

This place was never the same again,
After you came and went.
How can you say you meant anything different,
To anyone standing alone,
On the street with a cigarette
On the first night we met

maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe, that everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving,

2008-04-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

April 21st

baby, baby, baby, when all your love is gone, who will save me,

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i just had to do that.

aye, first game today. all the way seniorssss. behind all of you always.

2008-04-19T23:49:00.002+08:00

nineteenth

i. am. so. damn. tired.

training!
training!
training!

sometimes i wish we had training everyday. then again, maybe not.

IP preview today received an overwhelming response, especially those who requested for the school tour. we worked OT and hardly had any break time. when our last shift was finally over, it was such a relief. but not for long, cause we had to film MI, and there was training.

i don't feel too good these few days. seems like all my old injuries are coming back, and that's a really bad thing. i want to be fit and strong like i used to be. somehow i have this feeling that i'm gonna feel ill soon. but i don't really care cause i can't stop now. if i do, it'll do me no good.

i want what i want and i want it bad.

2008-04-18T23:31:00.002+08:00

friday.

am really tired so here's a quick one.

yesterday was a much better day, compared to today. i played netball in the morning, basketball in the afternoon, went for a run after that, walked home from bedok and cycled around after dinner. what i didn't quite like was that two of us collided in the morning, leaving me with an awfully painful blueblack on my left ear. okay which idiot would have a blueblack on her ear? me. and and, my light broke while i was cycling. i was scared because the route back was dark. without my front light would make it creepier. i found an alternative somehow.

today. was. such. a. wasted. day.

had training though, probably like the best thing that happened today.

i want, i want, i want to be better. better in every single way. better than you, better than her, better than everyone else. most importantly, better than my current self.

i need tips for a healthy and well-balanced diet. anyone?

2008-04-16T21:18:00.019+08:00

wednesday

did i ever mention that i'm going to name my daughter Wednesday Friday (insert surname here)? and to force her to keep pet spiders and play with Maria Antoinette dolls. besides that, i think i'd let her do whatever she wants.

we had a team lunch at Yuki & Yaki yesterday. there was the cool ice cream buffet thing which turned out to be like crap. but we made our own snowman! hung around for a bit before headin back home. favourite person and i decided to walk home from Tanah Merah, stopping by Simpang to get a drink. we were supposed to walk for at least 45 mins but since we took much shorter than that, we went over to the fitness corner near my place to playyyee. and of course, we had a good talk.

i think i'm seriously becoming moderately unproductive. i've been colouring my day away, had sushi with Baldie and did only a bit of math. i have quite a lot of overdue work but i just have no mood to start. should someone confiscate my colouring book and colour pencils and return it to me only after i've done whatever i'm supposed to do?
NO, NO ONE TOUCHES MY COLOURING BOOK. NO ONE.

2008-04-14T23:13:00.002+08:00

monday, 14th

"you've been the greatest bud ever, even though you make fun of me a lot, and accuse me of lying, and grabbing me by the neck & swinging me around..."

HAHAHA 1/8 of my Viwawa buddies.

because of them, i look forward to going home every night and finishing my work quickly just so we can create a room and start playing. maybe sometimes i play before i finish my work, but i am still thankful for them anyway. it's not as though i'll sleep any earlier without Viwawa.

i hate school, i still do.

2008-04-12T23:53:00.003+08:00

12th april 2008

things that'll make me happy now:
1. colouring
2. a nice, long and warm hug
3. hot chocolate
4. long walks
5. heavy rain, without the thunder and lightning please
6. roses and butterflies
.
.
.

today was fruitful. everything i did was whatever i liked or wanted to do.

had umpiring in the morning. though it was early and at CCAB, i like doing my job so i really didn't mind. it ended early so i headed home. got caught in the rain, and i was really scared. i had to walk across the field alone in the rain with all the lightning. i was thankful i didn't die.

the rain kinda got lighter by the time i got home. i wanted it to pour the whole day though. left my stuff at home and walked in the rain. i wanted the day to be gloomy, to be rainy and cold, just so i could walk/run/dance/jump in the rain and do whatever i wanted and feel free again and pretend no one will be watching and not be called insane. but it didn't.

at least i got to colour after that. (my colouring book got a little wet which made me kinda upset at first but i'll live with that.)

then, had dinner at some Thai restaurant. how annoying, i still haven't gotten my red ruby yet.

when i came back, played Viwawa for a bit and decided to get out of the house. i took a really long walk, making detours after detours just so i won't have to go home so soon. i think i probably covered at least 3km in 2 hours.

i was scared. i hate to admit it but i really was. it was dark and cold and getting late. strange creepy animals/insects would pop out of nowhere, scaring the hell out of me. not to mention the dogs barking. that's one thing bad about walking around the neighbourhood. so i headed out to the streets, to the roads. i don't know how i did it, but somehow i managed to walk to Li Meng's house. i wanted to drop by to pay him a visit, but remembered he'd moved out long ago.

we used to go there like almost everyday. it was like either his place or mine. and every time i go over at night, when i didn't take a cab there, he would have to pick me up from the bus stop because the path under the overhead bridge was dark and eerie. but i had to walk through that alone tonight.

alone. i did my night walk alone. okay maybe not exactly alone because i had my phone with me. but physically i was the only one there. i almost got myself killed because i forgot i was wearing all black and walked through this really dark road. some guy nearly knocked me down.

NJC better thank me because i walked around the Simei/Fengshan/Tanah Merah estate in the IP Preview shirt doing free advertisement. i even risked my life for that. (do i get more CIP hours?)

as i was walking, i thought about a lot of stuff. like random thoughts and past memories just appeared. some made me sad, i was indifferent to others, none made me particularly happy. i think the messages i received was what prevented me from dashing across the road.

the walk was long, but i wanted it to be even longer. i didn't want to stop. to be honest, i intended to walk across the island and see where i'll end up. i didn't know where to go, but i just didn't want to turn back or stop walking. if it wasn't as dark and i wasn't so freaked out and nobody made me go back, i would have continued walking, alone.

&i think i became much braver after tonight!

/
Thank You Reuben, you've been awesome the past week.

2008-04-11T22:17:00.004+08:00

friday 11th

i want to go back to the past, when i still didn't know anything and had people to depend on. though i didn't have friends then, at least i had family.

didn't go to school today and i realised how much i'd actually miss it. feels really weird to be home the whole day doing nothing, except sleep. at 5 i couldn't stand it anymore and decided to go cycling. nobody wanted to go with me, so i had to cycle alone. but i'm fine with it honestly. cycled up the hill to the secondary school only find that only three of them were left. never mind, still managed to play some ball. and i didn't stop at all while cycling up the hill!!! cycled to Tampines Mart after that. i nearly got lost there, but i am smart enough to ask for directions. met favourite person and Eileen. cycled back with favourite person, but she was running instead.

we looked like idiots dashing across the expressway exit with a bike and some girl running in slippers. but it's okay, at least we weren't harmed. sent her home, and i rushed back. it was late, dark and my bike didn't have any lights. i was kinda scared because the road home wasn't very brightly lit. made it home eventually.

i miss cycling with the girls. i miss those long and dangerous trips we took. i miss us going about yelling like a bunch of lunatics. and the list goes on...

2008-04-10T23:00:00.004+08:00

tenth april, thursday

i hate being sick.

i felt really awful in school just now. but nobody wanted to pick me up from school so i had to cab back and i nearly puked on the way. i hate that feeling. i hope nothing's wrong with me. after all, i'm only 15.

slept thewhole afternoon, kinda made me better a bit. but nobody wanted to take me to the doctor's so i guess i'd just have to rest at home or go on my own tomorrow. does anyone want to accompany me?

oh, i'm selling my two extra Add Math textbooks for fifteen each. both are brand new. don'tthink i've even flipped them open before. any takers?

/
thank you Serene Chew, Serene Siau, Shuyi and Peggie Hill Billy.

2008-04-09T23:25:00.002+08:00

9th April 2008

is it just me or is it that we really have nothing to do? i swear i've been playing Viwawa nonstop but i don't seem to be leveling up. i think i'm hooked onto it. is that a bad thing?

i think i accidentally pierced another hole myself today morning. it kinda hurt a little and started bleeding. then i realised i have a new hole. like wtf it is so not cool. we happened to talk about enlarged earholes during lunch. as much as i think it's freaky to insert a fifty cent coin into your earlobes, i think that it's actually kinda amazing how they managed to do that. seriously, we should at least give them some credit for it and not give them the disgusted look.

we like taking strange, random photos of each other in class and set it as someone's wallpaper. right now, if arshweewee didn't change it, his wallpaper would be the nicest of the nicest of the nicest of the nicest.

2008-04-08T23:16:00.004+08:00

8th April

we only had three periods today, double chinese and geography today. and we kinda wasted our half day away. we stayed back to play a few rounds of bridge, i think we're addicted. there is never one night that we aren't playing Viwawa. Serene followed me to the physio after that. dearest ankle, please don't die on me!

then, sushi with Stupid Baldie and Serene.

home, Viwawa. yeah, like the whole night.

i tore my contacts again. am i too careless or just simply too strong?

2008-04-07T22:50:00.002+08:00

monday, seventh april twenty o eight

you know that's not true. i love you and care about you, though not the way how you wished i did. i've walked down that road before. trust me, it isn't the kind of life you want to lead. i hope things will get better for you. life doesn't suck unless you make it to be that way.

on a lighter note, there's half day to look forward to tomorrow.

2008-04-05T20:37:00.003+08:00

5th April 2008

I HAVE REALLY BRAVE FRIENDS WHO DARED TO INSERT A SAFETY PIN INTO A PLACE WHERE THERE SHOULDN'T EVEN BE ANY HOLES.

i freaked out yesterday morning in the shower when i realised that my barbell was missing. i went to school in a foul mood because i knew if i didn't manage to find a replacement for it, my eighty dollars would be wasted. no one had anything, but i had a safety pin. risky, but i really didn't have any other choice. at least that kept it open till evening when i found a better solution.

wtf i had to go to four different places just to find the right one for it. i think Stege is a complete ripoff, but nowhere sells so i guess fifty for it can be considered the cheapest. i know i said i wanted to close it, but not yet. i'm not ready yet. i still like walking around looking like a freak.

Serene, Janice, Wei Quan, Ashwyn and I went for dinner after the chinese talk. school on Friday was really easy. PE was the best period as usual.

i miss trainings, i really do. :(

omg grading tmr, gtg.

2008-04-03T22:00:00.005+08:00

thursdayyy third april

HAPPY 16TH WEIRD SERENE!
(i know you think my card's the nicest.)

school was egggtremely slack today. the only lesson we had was probably like math. school kinda ended unofficially at 10, but there was chinese remedial and trainingzzzzzz. it started pouring just before 4.30 so we had to cancel training, but we stayed back to play around anyway. we intended to study, but ended up eating and folding stars instead. stupid, and i like it like that.

well, today was pretty fun actually, though i think i didn't learn much. morning training, soccer (i sucked horribly), nonsensical but fun ball games. i wouldn't mind it being like that everyday. oh and because half the class was gone, i had to stick with Ashwyn, Wei Quan, Kaushik and Pravin for lunch.

yesterday was campaigning day. i think we did a pretty good job attracting all the attention. but there was CAAL after that which ruined everything. i think Mr Chia almost didn't want to let me off earlier, but luckily he did. went for physiotherapy with Joyce, Peggie and Chengsiang. we had donuts after that! PEGGIE IS NOOB NOOB NOOB. ""P german.

to be honest, i haven't done much lately. sometimes i wonder if it's just me, or there really isn't anything to do.

2008-04-01T21:32:00.008+08:00

Happy April Fools'!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIFER METZ!

last Spring/Summer with you was great. looking through the photos, i really wish we could go back in time. i would definitely treasure every minute of that short 3 1/2 weeks there, but even if i go back now, things would be different. hope you've already gotten my parcel. i look forward to seeing you this Summer! (L)

2008-03-30T19:33:00.004+08:00

sunday thirtieth

Wen Jia Awesome is updated!

I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I STAYED UP TILL 3 LAST NIGHT TO PLAY BRIDGE WITH REUBEN AND ADRIAN.
I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I SPENT THE NEXT TWO HOURS UPDATING MY CHINESE BLOG.
I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT I ONLY GOT INTO BED WHEN MY MAID'S ALARM CLOCK WAS ABOUT TO RING.

yet, i don't feel too tired at all today.

we were supposed to meet at 2 at Bishan yesterday. but I, who stay the farthest, reached the earliest at 2.53. amazing, isn't it? we spent the whole of yesterday helping Tracy with her campaigning stuff. hopefully it'll all be doneby Wednesday!

i don't know why, but i just cannot wait for school tomorrow. somehow, i have a feeling that it'd be good. (Y)(Y)

/
OMG OMG OMG I JUST FOUND OUT THAT MR FANDY IS FROM THE GREAT SPY EXPERIMENT.
GIG ON 25TH APRIL. GO CHECK IT OUT. LET ME KNOW IF YOU'RE INTERESTED. I NEED SOMEONE TO GO WITH. MAYBE HE'LL GET US BACKSTAGE PASSES. (Y)(Y)(Y)

2008-03-28T23:09:00.002+08:00

28th April 2008

HAHAHAHA the note actually says,
to: Wen Jia (Gorgeous)
from: ~~Peggie!~~ :D
Peizi!!
DO NOT READ IF YOU'RE NOT WEN JIA.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

LOLZZZZZZZZZZ, like seriously, who in the world would leave such a note on the netball cupboard? only Peggie Pager Hill Billy Ben Tan would do that! but i accidentally wet it and it kinda tore a little. i'm sorry! anyway, i replied to your last comment.

hmm.
Men are like Waffles, Women are like Spaghetti. we were conned into going for it because they said it was compulsory. attendance was not even taken, like omg la! but can you believe it, i found it to be actually quite entertaining and amusing. or maybe it was just me. morning training on thursday made me so uncomfortable for the whole day because i was really sweating a lot, like a lot. i went for assembly in a huge mess, with water(sweat) dripping from my hair and i could tell that nobody wanted to stand next to me, including Mr Chia. i felt outcasted and disliked. :(

today was slightly better. nobody ran away from me because Paris Hilton attracted them instead! but after pe, which was the first lesson, i had no more friends again. :( :( hahahaha omg i sound like a rejected 5year old kid. anyway, school was a killer today. the weather was so darn hot and we didn't have any free periods!! urgh, then training, which was supposed to be fun and exciting, was ruined by the unexpected lightning and rain. never mind, at least we still got to do some stuff.

oh oh, i got a silver and a green star for not failing econs. but i think i would have gotten two gold ones if i had gotten an A instead. never mind, i have a green star and "good effort" on my differentiation practice set 6!

okay, i need to be disciplined and update Wen Jia Awesome at least twice a week. hopefully, that'll be enough to stop me from failing. serenecwyally, i'm trying my best already! i didn't know you'd actually read it!

i bet all of you are jealous - i have the nicest shoes on campus. specially customised and made to perfection in every single way. they are, fatally gorgeous.

2008-03-26T23:13:00.003+08:00

Mittwoch, 26 März

"况且，我只有十五岁，我到底会有什么解决不了的事呢？"
chinese-wj.blogspot.com,
for those who will even bother reading.

"Ich will drei Blog haben, obwohl das viel zu tun ist. Aber ich zeige meinen guten Willen."
german-wj.blogspot.com,
for those who understand.

i am exhausted. blogging in three languages and talking about different things is insanely crazy, but for the sake of A for german and C for chinese for O Levels, i will do it. self discipline is all i need. i shall sacrifice some tai ti time with jonnywalk3r, serenecwyally and i_ride_rolleroasters if necessary. it's really time that i set my priorities right.

swimming carnival today. wasted like the whole day. but it's all good because i'm glad i went for german! i think recently i've become more productive than ever! and that's good, no?

short post without photos because i am really tired from all that i've done tonight. (no, Joyce and I didn't do anything that nobody can ever know about.)

2008-03-23T12:06:00.006+08:00

Easter Sunday

we watched Vantage Point yesterday, after the friendlies with JJC and Anglican High. the movie was a complete rip off. oh wait, it was FOC! sucked sucked sucked big time. had pastamania for dinner, and i still stuck to my lacto-ovo vegetarian diet. i think i deserve some credit for that.

because i didn't play yesterday, i umpired both games. i think i'm gonna go for badging this june! i hope i'll improve a lot more by then and i'll pass and i'll be full white. that would be like so uber cool.

&&Christel Lee is finally online after eons!
(String me along like a beautiful love song.) says:
if you're kaypoh because you roll your eyes
(String me along like a beautiful love song.) says:
serene is like the queen of kaypoh
(String me along like a beautiful love song.) says:
HAHA

we sync-ed our itunes like we used to do last year when we were really bored. but stupid Arshweewee didn't want to because apparently, he thinks soccer's more important. woohoo long live Busted!!

because we are fun(nehhh) like that.

2008-03-20T23:46:00.005+08:00

thursday!

this was on tuesday when favourite person, Louisa, Elize and Kelyn happily savoured their meat tasty sub, and i had to be contented with my Vegge Delite. (they microwaved my egg!) Ice skating/bowling/sushi/kallang leisure park soon!

i'm getting quite used to this new vegetarian diet so i think i'm going to complete the one full week. (i bet shuyi will not.) but i need to remember to take my carbs regularly, especially on training days like today.

we've gotten back all our papers, except for economics. failed chinese, but zeng laoshi said i didn't do too badly! it was all the cloze passage's fault.to be honest, i'm actually quite satisfied with what i got. i don't think there's a need for me to get upset or go begging for marks.

first week of school was pretty alright. we got new seats, but i'm not exactly very pleased with my seat. oh whatever, i'll survive. and i'm kinda free lately because training's only once a week now for us. i think i should probably spend this time to buck up on my german because i can't survive the lesson without a dictionary and that is bad.

i hate selfish and mean people, and people who make use of me. i detest liars and certain hypocrites. show offs piss me off too. kthnxbai.

2008-03-17T21:01:00.002+08:00

montag, 17th

all Sara wanted was her son,
all Harry wanted was his girl,
all Mary wanted was to get high.
but things turned out to be crap. like awfully bad. and i feel for them. thank god the characters are ficticious.

Jared Leto is amazing! he makes the movie even better than it already is and being the front man of 30 Seconds To Mars is just...(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y)(Y). WATCH!

Watch "Requiem for a Dream" Movie

but i'm warning you, you've got to watch the movie with an open mind and be prepared for whatever that's gonna happen.

i nearly cried after watching the movie. it is extremely heartbreaking and i just hoped that the ending wasn't like how it is because things would be much better if everyone lived happily ever after. but we all know that's not possible cause junkies always end up in hell. trust me, i know. i don't ever want to get into bad company again. i don't want to ruin my life because even though i complain a lot about it, i'm fine with the way things are.

family, drugs, love.
money, fame, beauty.
these are some things that the movie talks about. being skinny isn't all that matters actually. i know it's weird coming from me, but we shouldn't be so superficial sometimes. so what if she's prettier than me? so what if she's skinnier than me? so what if she's taller than me? so what? we just got to be satisfied with who we are and that's all that matters.

recently i went through quite a period of hard time. i was trying so hard to be noticed, to please someone who really matters to me. or rather, some people. but up till now, i still haven't quite gotten what i sought for. i guess i'm fine with that now. and to think i was so foolish to hurt myself just for the sake of someone else. but it's all good, cause i like pain.

Shuyi and I are turning lacto-ovo vegetarians for a week. it was supposed to be five days but i bargained to three and then stupidly changed it to one full week last night cause i thought three days is too short. who knows it's only the first day and yet i'm struggling so hard to resist the temptation of gorging down some animal. don't worrry, unlike Sara, we are not turning vegetarians to lose weight to fit into Janice's uniform or anything. but rather, we're trying to put ourselves in Kaushik's shoes. and it isn't a tad bit easy. i never thought becoming vegetarian would be such a challenge. but it's okay, because if this is the case, then i'll definitely outdo BBBBL! one day down, only six more to go. i can do it!

/edit
okay i just found out that eggs are high in cholesterol (213 mg per yolk), and we should take in no more than 300mg per day. i had like 5 (or was it 6?) eggs today. i can't help it. i practically live on eggs. thankfully Shuyi and i agreed to include eggs and dairy products in our diet otherwise i'd really have nothing to eat. but i would have prefered it if we just stayed away from red meat so at least i can eat fish and seafood. but for now, eggs shall be my bread and butter. maybe i'll remove the yolk next time. maybe.

2008-03-17T00:48:00.002+08:00

sunday. (monday?)

shit shit school is starting in like six hours and i still haven't quite started on homework. but i can't help it when there's the ever so seductive internet around. am i screwed?

i feel lazy. i'll blog another day. tomorrow maybe.

2008-03-13T21:12:00.011+08:00

thursday, 13th march 2008

HELLO ALL. I AM BACK.

KL was good good good. though we didn't train much, not at all rather, i wouldn't say the trip was fruitful at all. at least we are more closely bonded now, and i'm truly grateful for that. i hope my relationship with NJNB wouldn't be another wild rollercoaster ride again, cause otherwise i'd be really sad. okay, sad is an understatement. but yeah, i'd feel upset and possibly would even lose my passion for the game itself.

compared to last year, i think i kinda like this trip a little more. we had 3 friendlies, ate good food, stayed in a 5-star hotel, shopped and paid less. more importantly, I, had a full body massage with Chengsiang, roomed with Mel, sat with Joyyyyyyyyyyce on the bus and slept with her on the last night.

we did stupid things, cracked lame jokes and did a lot of fun stuff! and to think i was a little hesitant to go for the trip at first. if i could, i'd go for another KL trip with the team.

i think Joyce and I are amazing. we stayed up till 2plus on the last night waiting for room service but didn't sleep a single wink on the bus ride home. Joyce bought a skirt! her first one ever and i picked it for her! i love you Joyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyce, even though i think you might like Zho_g Mi_g more. (ARE YOU SINGLE???)

P.S.
iq iuh...got caught.

2008-03-09T00:28:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY THE 8TH

i woke up with a really bad headache today and i couldn't walk straight until like after lunch. i wonder why.

so anyway, after physics we were supposed to have our class lunch and outing. but it started so late that i had nothing to do, so i went to play tennis (i still suck at it) with Shuyi and Meiyan and ball with Sheng Rui and Marilyn. then (stupid) Baldie wanted to go to the library to read, so we did. finally, we set off for Seoul Garden. i was quite disappointed i couldn't go KBox with the class, because i heard that Mr Khoo was there too!! oh well, went for training instead.

we had dinner at Suntec City, and found out that Joyce and Zho_g Mi_g have something going on. but it's okay, i understand that sometimes my dearest Joyce would prefer boys to me. yeah, i'm cool with it.

then was supposed to meet Jonnieeee and company at Pool Junction but i kinda got lost and walked past it several times. i found it eventually and i think we all had a little too much to drink.

i got myself a new pair of asics today and toyed with the coin deposit machine. went to Suntec with favourite person and saw two (un)qualified models(?) having their shoot at the really nice roof garden. if they can be models, i think we'd be supermodels!

GOLDREPUBLIC.LIVEJOURNAL.COM
PLEASE SUPPORT!

will be off to KL for four days. will be back on Wednesday, till then, stay gold.

2008-03-06T23:20:00.002+08:00

March Sixth.

YOU, disappoint me.

i don't see why it's wrong to shop or catch a movie to reward ourselves after a long paper everyday. isn't that a good way to destress? definitely better than watching Hannah Montana online. (WEIRD SERENE.)

figured that Starbucks at night isn't quite a good idea. the lights are not bright enough and caffine makes us lazy. Favourite Person, i hope you're doing fine now. trust me, i'm sure win, lose, or draw, they'll still forgive you. they're nice people! after all, you were teammates for four years. i can't say i know excatly what's going on in the team, but i'm sure they'll be there for you. and even if they aren't, there's always me. you can call me up any time, and i'll be there. love you always. (and Lou) thanks for the chocolate, it didn't melt!

math was alright, but i guessed some answers though. mi - no comment. Raffles City with WS, (Y)(Y)! last paper, physics, tomorrow. i wonder how well it'll go.

tomorrow is such a happening day - last day of school, last day of ass week, physics paper, Netball finals/3rd 4th placing/seoul garden/training/kbox/poon guan&co(?) - what shall i do?

2008-03-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

Wednesday, 5th March.

(Wednesday sounds nice. i am going to name my daughter Wednesday, with Friday as her middle name. i shall force her to have pet spiders and give her a Maria Antoinette doll on her first birthday.)

chineseeeeeeeeeee didn't go too bad. i managed to complete the paper! (like i always do) and i did make the effort to read through the cloze passage instead of doing the usual random guessing method.

we ended at 9.15, 9.08 to be exact, so Serene, JH and I went to watch The Leap Years. it wasn't as great as i had expected it to be. but it's okay, it was still quite worth the six dollars.

i went to Junction 8 two hours earlier, with the intention of going for german. who knew that this year's German Day sucks so bad we left even before everything started. i wonder who was the one who told me that it'd be fun and made me go down even though i'm having math and mi tomorrow. i think it's the same person who thought that Sasha was quite good looking too two years ago.

okay, i'd better get back to Penelope and Odysseus, before i lose interest.

2008-03-04T21:08:00.003+08:00

fourth march twentyzeroeight

went to town with Baldie and Serene after the chem-mystery paper today. we did what we do best, roamed about aimlessly. seriously, i think we should stop being so childish cause it's time that we grow up! (for JH, literally.)

i thought trigo, chemistry and economics went pretty alright. chinese tomorrow, i'll need all the luck i can get.

2008-03-02T20:30:00.002+08:00

2nd March

"P.S. I love you with the Queen of Spades, Favourite person in the universe, and JH Lover last night! I said a stupid joke while we're queueing for popcorn, which was 'Brenda, WHY DID YOU NOT TAKE YOUR SCISSORS AND CUT THE QUEUE.' (Credits to Cihui) R.o.f.l!"
http://zerooneone.livejournal.com

that was pretty much my yesterday. apart from all the studying of course. did a little shopping too and had beep test in the morning.

i need to reboost my confidence because the people around me haven't been helping. those whom i thought i could rely were not there for me and i'm quite disappointed. yet there are those who don't even know what's going on. i don't blame you. after all, i am only this significant to you. you are selfish, mean and biased. i know i shouldn't blame you but i just can't help it. as weird as this may sound, i'm sorry for hating you. maybe it's my fault we ended up this way. but ask yourself, all these years, have you really been there for me? and how often do you lie to me anyway. don't tell me the answer, because that would probably be all the time. it's okay, i've already gotten used to it.

today was productive. studied and went for taekwondo.

i hope the coming week would be alright. last week of school/assessment week. i'll survive. i can't wait for Friday. i'm already almost 70% certain.

2008-02-29T22:36:00.004+08:00

February 29th

so deep, that it didn't even bleed.
so deep, that i didn't even scream fuck me.

didn't want to post today, but since this day only comes once every four years, i figured i might as well should.

29th February - the only day when girls get to propose and not be rejected. stupid Irish tradition, but hey, it's pretty cool. so whoever i propose to will have to say yes to me. awesome.

well, i spent both my study days in school. i think i've become more disciplined this year, but it's probably a little too late. i need time, time to restructure my life and think about what i really want. plastic surgeon - a little too ambitious? but that's just me. sometimes i wish for things i know i will never get. and they say dreaming is for fools.

congratulations to Anglican High B Div Netball for making it into Top4! at least there's something for you to look forward to now. favourite person, not in front of you, but i can burn when you're not around yeah? keep your phone close, i might just call you out for coffee really soon. love.

i don't need someone to assure that everything's going to be okay because i know it will not and i've already found my salvation so please just leave me be unless i get too carried away and eventually really do become suicidal. but for now, i'm doing just fine.

2008-02-28T20:39:00.005+08:00

february 28th

They don't think they're too smart or desperate.
They know that the 'laws' always wins;
They've been shot at before,
but they do not ignore
that death is the wages of sin.

Some day they'll go down together
they'll bury them side by side.
To few it'll be grief,
to the law a relief
but it's death for Bonnie and Clyde.

i've been pretty down these few weeks and i have finally understood the bitter taste of regret. i guess this is part of growing up. i messed up badly and i am one selfish bitch. don't bother about me because i deserve to die and burn in Hell.

would you be my little cut?

2008-02-25T20:33:00.005+08:00

mondayyyyy 25th

this was last tuesday, when sparklers still appealed to me. i still have some left in class, you can get them from me if you want.

i should seriously cut down on my daily cholesterol intake, because 5 eggs a day is omggggggggggggg.

oh, Kaki Bukit CSC Carnival on Saturday. i think i played well! and the game with Bartley was crap, because one particular GA was such a bitch that i couldn't help but point the middle finger at her. wtf you relaccc la. but but at the end of the day, my ankle got really swollen. :(

Friday, after road run, caught Jumper with Arshweewee, Quan Quan, Baldie, Weird Serene, Tracy and Gayleeeeeee. home early cause it was younger sister's birthday.

did some studying with Joyce, Jingmin and Pauline after school today. i like... Joyyyyyyce. haha!

Carol joined our class today. she isn't that badla , not for now at least.

assessment week's in a week and i haven't quite started studying like i ought to. now that Christel's gone, i have one less study buddy. sucks sucks sucks. oh, ass week's nearing so i need some stress relief.

I Like Pain.
(is it turning into an addiction?)

2008-02-21T22:49:00.005+08:00

thursday, 21st

we lou hei-ed on tuesday after training, which was really cool. i think netballers are the best cause i don't think any other ccas actually celebrated CNY together or something.

hmm i do remember having sushi with Baldie yesterday, but i can't really remember what else i did yesterday. we sat at Sakae for two hours plus with the intention of doing math. but i guess we just lack self discipline sometimes, so we ended up talking instead. (i still don't like the idea of fitting the nanyang girl into our class.)

had a good talk with Peggy Pager Hill Billy Pigeon Tan today. i'm glad we understand each other.

school/life sucks sometimes. i suddenly miss my Buddy and Ruby cookie very very much. and Jenny, haven't spoken to her since Christmas. am i a bad friend?

2008-02-18T00:45:00.003+08:00

monday boo.

What Chang Wen Jia Means

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.

You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.

A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you.

You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries.

You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

because taking a break every once in a while is acceptable.

i laughed the hardest i ever did this year on saturday. it's been a really long time since i truly did enjoy myself. Lee Ying, Louisa, Graci, Kelyn, Elize, Zhu Ting, Alicia and Pandora came over to bai nian. we lou hei-ed, watched Death Sentence, played bridge, taitee, cheat(literally and the game itself), mahjong and monopoly. Lee Ying and I owned at monopoly cause we cheated. but the main point is, WE OWN PANDORA'S WHITE SEXY ASS, and she still doesn't want to throw her Queen Spades out.

i think cards with Elize, Pandora and Lee Ying was the best! (Y)(Y)

anyway, so much for fun and laughter. it was back to school today. and i didn't enjoy it a single bit. but i thought what Barney said did make a little sense to me. though the part about GPA is kinda not true, i think that 50 mins he spent talking to us helped us quite a bit.

so,
hang in there, dear friends. cause it'll all be over soon. and even if things aren't exactly how we expected them to be, let's do our best and i'm pretty sure we always have each other to watch our backs.

2008-02-16T00:00:00.006+08:00

Total Defence Day!

a day late, but,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA, IVAN & VALENTINO!

yesterday was kinda crappy. yet another bad day. we wanted to watch Jumper but there weren't any decent seats so we kinda hung around Fort Canning and The Legends instead. then went back to meet the girls and had dinner at 85.

i managed to play sparklers thrice yesterday! the first time in school with Hui Qi noob and Jing Min, second in school(AH) with Louisa a little and at the bus stop with the AHnetballers. but my lighter kinda burnt and we didn't manage to finish the whole box. in fact we only played like 2 sticks each i think. :(

but never mind, because Run Feng, Serene and Zizhao played with me in class after school today! and the sad thing is, i lost my lighter again.

i felt so mad at myself for falling asleep once i got home last night. i didn't do any of my homework and i woke up really really tired this morning. i could barely keep my eyes open the first few periods. i think IP2 is exhausting. i can honestly say i haven't had a good night's rest in a long time. but how can i when there's so much work to do and there are people coming over everyday? i think 24 hours a day is insufficient. we should have longer days (and nights)!

I LIKE MY FRIENDS.

2008-02-13T21:58:00.002+08:00

13th february

(dermal pigmentations are cool.)

I HAD A BAD DAY.
or rather, i had a chain of bad days. but today was just, ...

i was so close to getting another one on impulse again. but eventually i became rational and thought it over again. i wonder how long it would be before i really lose my mind. not yet, but i would say it's pretty soon.

i'm trying to find ways to make myself happier. i don't know, retail therapy sounds good, that is, if i really could buy everything i want. and i mean everything. for a start, silk dress, fcuk top, and shoes.

I WANT TO PLAY SPARKLERS REAL BAD.
WHICH KIND SOUL IS WILLING TO PLAY WITH ME TMR? (I AM BRINGING ONE WHOLE BOX OF IT TO SCHOOL AND STEALING ONE OF MY DAD'S LIGHTERS SO I AM PRETTY SURE WE'LL HAVE SOME FUN.)

2008-02-10T21:46:00.000+08:00

bloody Sunday

hello all. happy chinese new year.

YU LONG SUCKS. YU LONG SUCKS. YU LONG SUCKS.
all who agree please say copy and paste this into your blog/pm/msn nick/whatever.

that asshole dropped my camera which means i'll have to send it for repair and that is so troublesome and unnecessary. maybe i should just get him to buy me another one.

so anyway, this year's CNY's pretty boring. nothing much to do except sit around, eat, mahjong and cards. furthermore, i am not really in the mood for any celebration or whatsoever.

Miss Lee is so lucky. she has like the best husband one could ever ask for. i wonder if my future husband would be anything like him.
Mr Eng is so funny. he made some us do stunts with Trigo.

Nick's no longer the most handsome guy i've ever seen now. i saw this really really charming guy with multiple face piercings and a high, sharp nose. sexy, Baby. i want a lip ring too. (but i still like Nick.)

YU LONG SUCKS YU LONG SUCKS YU LONG SUCKS YU LONG SUCKS YU LONG SUCKS YU LONG SUCKS

2008-02-06T23:13:00.000+08:00

chinese new year eve

I AM QUITE UPSET NOW. :(

i took like 2 hours (or more) to do Arshweewee's hair today after celebrations, but it's back to its curly self again. tell me that sucks. i was actually really pleased with what i did. now that i've failed, i need to think of a better way to fix his awful hair.

anyway, celebration in the hall was pretty alright i guess, except for the fact that i didn't manage to answer any questions correctly although i went up there like the most number of times. but at least i tried.

hmm then began Operation Straighten Arshweewee's Hair, which was a complete failure eventually. went to meet the 6/2 people after that. we were like a bunch of homeless kids hanging outside some pool place at Grandlink. heck that, we settled for Alicia's house after that. we sat by the pool just laughing at each other. then headed to Suntec for a really short while because i had to go off for my reunion dinner.

food served during dinner was good, better than the crap we get in school.

OH OH HAPPY BIRTHDAY BUDDY CHRISTEL. HOPE YOU'RE ENJOYING SCHOOL OVER THERE. YOUR BUDDY MISSES YOU DEEPLY.

sunday, my place. contact me personally if you're coming.
NOTE: FRIENDS ONLY.

2008-02-05T20:48:00.000+08:00

tuesday.

it sucks to be sick on eve of chinese new year eve.

i shouldn't have gone to school today.

now all i really want is someone to hug and hold me real tight. and maybe a kiss on the forehead. yes, that would really help.

2008-02-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

saturday, 2nd feb

this is late, but,
HAPPY 16TH, PAUL.

we've come a long way since primary three. we were young and childish then, and i think we hated each other. (i still do, sometimes.) but look at us now, we're so much different from we were then. i admit that i vent my anger on you sometimes, but you can't deny that you pms me a lot too. nevertheless, i still love you bitch.

talent time on friday was good. i did photog duty for Lamb Gwen quite a bit. i think the photog people like me! personally, i thought either Cara or that IP1 guy should have won the solo category. the soccer guys weren't that bad either. and because of the MI test and math test, Friday sucked big time.

on the bright side, there's only two more days of school left before Chinese New Year!

fourckers, please read class blog!

2008-01-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

30th January

and i'd do anything for you.

i like Pierre Bouvier, and the tattoos. (Y)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIG BUTT BIMBO BABOON LOSER AND LEONARD NEO.

BBBBL: take good care of the flower okay. i honestly was really upset when i saw it dying in school just now. and don't worry, you're still my best bimbo friend.

NEO: again, sorry for staining your shirt. but i got you a nicer one instead. do wear it out more often and i promise i won't ever stain your shirt again!

2008-01-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

sunday, 27th!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZOOTS. SORRY I MADE YOU SKIP TAEKWONDO. BUT AT LEAST NOW YOU KNOW WHY I TALKED YOU OUT OF GOING FOR IT!

k,
Cara's party yesterday. so we were Mr and Mrs not-so-Smith. but hey, at least we did make an effort.

i count myself lucky for not getting pushed into the pool with my dress on. otherwise my mom would so kill me. i guess Ashwyn and Wei Quan can be nice sometimes.